Have I done enough??

One day closer to a tapper. As I was on my bike yesterday, it occurred to me that this journey is almost over. It's sad really...and scary! I hope I am ready. Yes, it's been tiring, but not as painful as expected. There have been several days that I didn't want to train or felt I was too busy...but the training got done. Have I done enough???

Everyone I have talked to has mentioned how exhausted they are, how sore they are, how DONE they are. I don't feel that way. I did a 5 hour 90+ ride yesterday with my "men" and was tired last night. But, not drop dead tired. I was still able to go for a short (10 minute) run, go to Costco, then the store, make dinner, do dishes and do a load of laundry. When asked if I could go out and run a marathon after my ride; my response was "Yep, I could, but I don't want too."

Am I exhausted? I think I might be. But another part of me just wants to have a glass of wine, or eat bread! (My stomach doesn't like breads or pastries lately) My kids say that my fuse is short, but I still have energy to do stuff. Although my house is a mess, and it doesn't seem like I get as much done in a day as I use too. I don't feel exhausted. I have energy...or at least fuel in the system.

Am I sore? NO! Not at all. I was a little yesterday off of the bike, but not even Spa or Tylenol worthy. This I think scares me the most. Shouldn't I be sore? Even a little?? Does this mean that I am not pushing myself hard enough? Will I be able to make the run???

Am I done with all this training? With some things, yes. But, I love riding my bike and I have found a LOVE for the water that I didn't know existed. I love swimming...it becomes very relaxing and almost puts me into a meditative state of mind. The run...I will get through. Which is kind of funny, since this was the one area I thought was my strongest. I think I am sad that the training is coming to an end. What will I do with 20 plus hours a week added into my life again? What can I train for next? Have I trained enough??? Should I have trained on my Optional days off that I took? (If it said "optional day off" I took the day off. I hope this doesn't bite me in the butt!)

Is it wrong to already be planning Arizona 2009? Yes, that will be #2 if #1 is successful. If for some reason #1 is not...than that will be ATTEMPT #2~!

Have I done enough??? Am I ready? Shouldn't I be more sore??? Shouldn't I be THINNER!!!! Am I being realistic that I think I can do this Ironman thing? How many people will I have disappointed if I do not succeed? Corey has taken so much time off for this trip, the kids have seen less of me since my training began, my in-laws, parents, friends and neighbors have all joined in on the quest. I have had people support me in so many ways. Will I be able to face the Ironman Crew if I fail? What will they say at Ironman CDA if I don't make it to the finish line? What will my tri-team say? How will my friends that are racing with me feel? What about my coaches that have put so much into this race and training me?

GOD....I hope I have done enough!